Days 144-141

Tuesday-Friday, January 3-6, 2017

Temperature: Who the fuck cares? I’m back damn it. Weather schmeather...But I will say that it’s too damn cold out there -- or so I’ve heard.

I didn’t exactly know how to structure today’s post, since I've  been gone for so long (3 whole days, whew!), so I’m just going wherever the wind takes me on this one. And by wind, I mean the oscillating heater that I have blowing on me.
Let’s see where this goes…

What Kind of Day Did I Have & Why? | How Do I Feel? Health/Lupie Status?

So, I’m back. And it kind of feels like I’ve come back to life. I put it out there that I was knocked out of the game by a ghastly Lupus flare, but now that I am completely out of the woods with that, I have a bit of a different perspective on life.

2017 started...Happy New Year! And then this…
Dun, dun, duuuunnnnn…..

I have decided that THIS Lupus flare up was exactly what I needed to put a fire under my ass and help me to understand just how important it is to live every single day like it is my last.

In my New Year post, I said the following:

2017 WILL BE ALL ABOUT
HONESTY | CELEBRATION | LOVE | COMMITMENT | SHARING

AND CHANGE

And now, I really really understand what that means!
Days like the ones I just went through are tough on my body (I can’t help that), but I will not them break me or my spirit.

Oh, no!

They will instead push me to enjoy life a little bit more on the great days.
Make that a lot a bit.
Yes, a lot a bit!

Workout Time & Duration?

Haha! Yeah right! That's not funny..

 I may have lost a few pounds though...I wouldn’t be surprised.

Destination Wedding Task Tackled?  | Any Old Destination Wedding Tasks Making a Comeback?

Although I wasn’t able to handle any destination wedding tasks, I did have plenty of time to daydream about our past vacations and how great our wedding weekend will be... it is going to be amazing! And... this morning, my email inbox had a treat from Lea at Aline Mayan (I fondly call her my napkin lady) about our reception napkins and they are looking spectacular!

I can see my vision coming to life - much like myself.

Loving Black Love Moment?

My life is one tremendous Loving Black Love Moment, but this week Che has been such a remarkably supportive partner! 
More than usual...I mean, the man surprised me this week with his level of support.  I wasn’t diagnosed with Lupus before our relationship and I don’t think that is a coincidence. I’m not sure that I could do this without him. At least, it would be a gazillion times more difficult.
Che took over the house and my recovery like never before and I think he loved me a little deeper on those days - hell, he’d have to as a defense mechanism for his own sanity. Making dinner (with a little coaching), keeping me on track with meds, listening and acting on my pains and complaints, taking care of Sparky, working from home to help me when he could...he did it all...and I’m sure there were things that I’m not aware of. I know it isn’t fair for him and I appreciate him greatly. I am marrying that man...In 141 days...I sure am! But I have to think of a way to repay him in the meantime.

Think...think...
think Omi…

What am I happy for?

I kind of “came out” in my own way today. I posted on social media about my Lupus diagnosis and decided that I am no longer going to be ashamed of it. I’m happy I was able to do that today. And I like to think that this flare up coming at the beginning of the year was a catalyst for that boost of confidence. So does that mean that I’m happy for my Lupus flare? I guess it kind of does.
Interesting...

What could I have done better?

I have a pretty good idea of what I need to do to stay healthy so for these next 140 days or so leading up to the wedding and I’m going to do just that!
Anti-inflammatory will be my motto from here on out. No more pizza shaming (like Day 145)!
My to-do list will have the following on it: Working out, eating right and keeping it light and happy.

What am I doing tomorrow?

In addition to  Working out, eating right and keeping it light and happy? I’ll be doing whatever I can do to make tomorrow better than today. Yeah, I like that.
And making sure that I show Che our napkins...because I love them.