Day 57

Friday, March 31, 2017

Temperature: High 59° / Low 42°and it really rained all damn day

What Kind of Day Did I Have & Why?

To say that I was emotional today would be an understatement. I got a lot done and found out that my wedding dress has superpowers! What a way to end the month!

How Do I Feel? Health/Lupie Status?

My right wrist has been bothering me all day, but nothing too crazy. I’d put my pain at a 3.5. I was running around a lot today so I’m not surprised at all.

Workout Time & Duration?

I didn’t make it to the gym, but I did get a core workout in while I was going over the final parts of launching today’s podcast episode. It was only about 15-20 minutes, but it counts!

Destination Wedding Task Tackled:

Today was dress fitting day and boy did I need it! I was still a little down from my emotional outburst this morning and I really forgot all about it when my seamstress, Debbie, brought my dress out.

My mood was immediately lifted!

She’s making progress, but I was actually hoping for more to be done today. I know we have time, and we went over several details and I’m really happy about the attention to detail…Nonetheless, I’m expecting more for the next appointment. But...the second I slipped on my dress, my stress disappeared and I thought about walking into the sunset with my husband in 57 days!

Any Old Destination Wedding Tasks Making a Comeback?

Nothing here.

Loving Black Love Moment?

I broke down and cried my ass off this morning. Like seriously...ugly & uncontrollable crying. I felt a ginormous cloud of hurt and disappointment from people who have been important to us for our whole lives but will not be at our wedding. It came up yesterday and I kept it in then...but I couldn’t keep it together this morning when I thought about it.

I selfishly called Che (while at work) with all of my feelings and he listened and then made sure that I felt validated. And then he kept it super real with me and told me that rather than be disappointed and hurt, he’d rather us walk off into the sunset together.

He’s the best! There’s no one better!

What am I happy for?

Tonight we went to dinner with some friends and we had a great time! They gave us our first wedding gift too! Che and I were so touched by the thoughtfulness and had a sentimental moment. It feels so good to have genuinely supportive people in our lives!

And our first wedding gift!

What could I have done better?

I could have been more thoughtful of Che’s feelings when I called him with heavy drama in the middle of his work day. I shouldn’t have done that...it wasn’t fair to him.

What am I doing tomorrow?

I’m looking forward to our second pre-marital counseling session and going to the gym!

Hopefully, I’ll be less emotional too -- Fingers crossed!